My book’s journey

     I am awaiting two exciting deliveries: the delivery of the Brain over Binge books to my doorstep, and the delivery of my new baby girl. The baby should arrive in about a week (and we have yet to decide on a name!), and the books should arrive in a little more than two weeks. 

     Writing this book has been a long journey for me. I began taking notes and writing rudimentary chapters in early 2006, slowly documenting my experiences and ideas. Considering this was less than a year after my recovery, it may have seemed bold.  How did I know my recovery would last? 


     I just knew. My bulimia was over for good, and I was fully convinced that I had a powerful story to share.  Writing that story was a great challenge, and a great joy. Some months brought much productivity; but other months brought lulls, indecision, frustration, and simply a lack of time. When my son was born, I took a six-month break from writing, and I did the same when my daughter arrived. This is why, when we found out we were expecting baby #3, I knew I absolutely had to finish before my due date. 


     I’ve worked hard these past nine months to make this a reality, spending many weekends writing at coffee shops while my husband watched the kids, and staying up too late most nights. The months seemed to fly by, but I’m proud to say it is finished. 


     My perfectionism tells me the book could be better, that there is more I can say and better ways I can say it, but it’s time to let my words stand as they are. I had a mission in mind when I set out to write this book, and I believe I’ve fulfilled it. More importantly, I think the book holds great promise for helping others. 


     As for how the book will be received…Who knows?  Who cares?  It could cause only the tiniest of ripples in the field of eating disorders, or it could create a big splash. Either way, that’s not what my mission was about. It was about telling my story – embarrassing parts and all – to other bulimics/binge eaters who may want to listen and learn from my hard-learned lessons.  

6 thoughts on “My book’s journey

  1. I loved reading this post since after reading your book recently I marveled at how good your writing is. I figured you must have had the guidance of a skilled editor to help you write such a cogent, clear book with a driving message. I never felt it was wordy or tangential. Every paragraph and chapter supported your point and I’m amazed to read that you churned this out with two little kids and a bun in the oven over weekends at a coffee shop. Your book has changed my life and I am an evangelist for this shift in thinking about binge eating disorder. I hope that this book is the tipping point to change the way bingeing is handled and stop the (in my opinion harmful) current modality of telling the binger to accept their problem and love their body as it is. That was crap advice that kept me sick for years and I am finally getting my life back thanks to your book.

  2. You are too kind:-) I can’t take all of the credit though. I did have two wonderful editors help me toward the end of the writing process – one with organization and one with copy editing.

    I’m glad you didn’t find the book wordy, because that’s something I struggled with (especially in Part III). I believed a certain level of repetition was necessary, but obviously too much and it becomes redundant and tiresome. So, it’s nice to hear that you found the book’s message clear and cogent.

    It’s also wonderful to hear that this book has changed your life. I think back to when I wrote this post – while waiting for my book to arrive and my baby to be born – and how much I longed for all of my work to make a difference in others’ lives; and now to see your comment under this post is very meaningful to me.

    Thanks for taking the time to share your thoughts. Congrats to you for taking control and overcoming binge eating. I wish you all the best.

  3. I have just started reading your book, and already I feel hope that your book can help me. I have struggled with binge eating my whole life but have just admitted to myself and husband that it is a struggle that effects my whole life. I also want to read all your blog posts to help me understand more how you have recovered from this and how I too can overcome it, because I believe I can. Thanks for sharing your story.

    1. Thanks for writing. I’m sorry you’ve struggled with binge eating for a long time, but I’m so glad to hear that you are motivated to recover. I hope you found the rest of my book helpful, and I truly hope you are able put binge eating behind you.

  4. Read the book two weeks ago. I love it..thought I would never binge again. Then I had two huge binge purges. One last week and one this week. I usually have two a week so I guess thats an improvement. I work around food all night (restaurant business) and what really set me on these binges is a ton of free sweets. I start with a donut and it turns into 10 donuts and a whole carrot cake, etc. and keeps going all night. Ideas on how to handle myself around free food that is there all the time?! I thought I was finished with the binge/purges for good. My health is suffering and anything you know that could help me would be amazing. Still having trouble separating and watching my thoughts and two brains.

    1. I’m truly sorry it’s taken me so long to get back to you. I hope you are doing okay.

      I understand your concerns about being around free sweets. Once you are confident in your ability to detaching from and resist the binge urges, working in that environment shouldn’t be a problem. Until then, my suggestion would be to set a mental limit beforehand of how much of the free sweets you are okay with eating. Think about this when you are not experiencing a binge urge and while you are not around the food – but what amount of sweets do you think is normal in a given night/week? 1 donut or piece of cake per night? less? more? There is no right or wrong answer, it’s an individual decision.

      Know that after you eat the amount that you planned to eat, your lower brain will likely urge you to eat much more – that’s what you will label the neurological junk and ignore. The first several nights, the lower brain will likely present it’s case frequently of why you should eat more than your limit. But, it should taper off quickly and being around those foods won’t cause the same reaction.

      After your binge urges go away, you will likely still want some of the sweets, and that’s fine; but the idea of eating a whole cake will no longer be appealing.

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